Want to share something with everyone

Hi, everyone:

 

Just a daily update to let you all know that treatment went well this morning.  God always surprises me with a "gift" @ radiation.  This morning, it was the face of a dear, sweet lady I have not seen in a while.  Her battle with breast cancer began about 6 months after mine, and she is now in the radiation phase of treatment.  It was so good to see her kind face, and TO REMEMBER HER NAME!  How amazed I was that it came to me with all the clouds up there!  So, thank you GOD, for sweet, daily moments!

 

We went in early, and I was finished with treatment by 9 am, with new prescriptions in tow.  So, we decided to jump in the car to come home.  Brian and I had a nice ride together.  When we returned to Gastonia, we went to have lunch together.  I could literally eat everything in my sight right now.  I am taking so many steroids that you guys would laugh at my appetite.  Brian is not used to me shoveling food down like this, but I think it is doing his heart well to see me eat!  When we came home, we brought all of our "hotel" bags in and tried to get everything washed up.  I am just one of those neurotic people that cannot wear something if it has sat in a suitcase overnight in a hotel.  I have to wash it first.  We are almost finished.  Thankfully, we didn't take much!  We also cleaned the house and got all the animals fed.  He has gone to run a few errands and we have a big night of getting caught up on bills together.  Thank goodness I am feeling good today.  Of course, Brian's tires have decided to wear out on us.  Fortunately, we knew it was coming and have planned accordingly.  It seems we've  been putting $50 a week back every week for a year, but now we have the money to pay cash for them.  That is his big "chore" for the day.  You can't convince me of that, though!  I think he is excited about getting them.  To me, it's just more time on the road...to him, it's a new toy!  Say a prayer that we get a good deal when he goes to order the tires he is getting.  Hopefully, we can have them all taken care of by this weekend.

 

So, today, there is something I want to share with all of you that I have written in my Bible. Apparently, I wrote both of these entries on the same day, but different pages in my Bible.  I wrote them on April 28, 2004.  This was the day before my birthday...so, maybe I was just feeling a little sentimental or something...who knows?  Just keep in mind, that I wrote all of this after having my children, but before all of this cancer and even before Scott and Tina's accident.  I can't help but thank God for the journey He is seemingly taking me on to answer these prayers that I have for my life.

April 28, 2004

 

My hope in my life is based on my sincere belief that God sent His son, Jesus Christ, to die for my sins.  Through Christ's resurrection, I know  that my future holds eternal life.  I can find hope and joy in each day because I know that I was born to serve a purpose in God's perfect will, and all of the circumstances I face in my life on Earth, though good or bad, serve a greater purpose for God!  In Jeremiah 29:11, God promises me that He knows his plan for me - hope and a future!

April 28, 2004

 

The greatest struggle I face in my life is allowing myself to release my children completely to God's will. I worry for them and their future(s) constantly.  One day, my hope, is that I will sincerely realize that God's plan (will) for their lives is far greater than anything I could ever provide for them on Earth.  My job is to believe this with all of my heart and provide them with guidance that will, hopefully, lead them to God's feet - so that one day they may choose God's will for their lives of their own free will.  May God help me on this journey as I search  for this peace!  One day, I hope to release my children to God and mean it with all of heart.  My prayer is to lay them at his feet and walk away with the confidence that they are safer at his feet than in my arms!

 

I can truly tell you that I have reached the point in my life that my children belong to my Father in Heaven.  I trust them in His arms because I know that I am only human.   I cannot promise them anything about tomorrow, but He can.  He is the same today, yesterday and tomorrow.  In His presence they will always be safe and loved.  In mine, they stand wondering if I will even be here.  If I had to come to this point in my life to experience a peace such as this....it was worth it....!!!  Some people go their entire lives never experiencing that peace!  I have it!  Thank you, Jesus!  Free at last!  Free at last!

 

Thank you all for loving me so much and praising God with me!  Go enjoy and bask in the moment He has given us!!!!

Tiffany